My life: Giving new meaning to “i would rather be fat and happy than skinny and miserable”
The last three weeks have been amazing/miserable..i have completely given up on all thing diet and exercise. But im not really that upset about it. When i am dieting and trying to lose weight it consumes me.. Entirely. I constantly am thinking about calories and fat. I am always thinking about how hungry i am and about the food i cant eat. If the number on the scale isnt what i want to see i dislike myself so much that i push myself to the point on not eating and then binging and i hate it. I hate the person i become and it gives me anxiety. When i say its been an amazing last few weeks i mean it in a sense of i KNOW i have gained wait. BUT i have been eating what i want and i havent had anxiety about eating or gaining wait. I dont want to give up on my road to minus 20 pounds by my birthday but i need a way to focus on weight loss without the anxiety and mind consumption. I need to take control of it with out it taking control of me. Does anybody have any suggestions?
